Right I am a woman, I have the right, or so they say, to change my mind. I am now officially GRUMPY. I have just received a letter from my consultant that has a paragraph in it suggesting that 'this' might be 'in my mind'.
I am in a fury. I know that there is something wrong with me. I was asked if I was anxious and tried to be truthful.
I fall over, at worst it hurts,( might show pictures to rival LL's bruises) at best it is embarrassing, does that make you anxious well yes on the whole I would prefer to avoid pain and embarrassment, normal I think.
I can no longer do all of the things that I used to do, does that make me embarrassed/anxious well, yes if I am trying to eat a meal in company and my hand shakes so much that I can't cut up my food or get it to my mouth in some sort gentile fashion.
My grandchildren arrive and I can't go on a day out with them because the first part of the morning is spent throwing up and they have to hear that, poor buggers and I may shake and twitch so much that without supervision I can't hold them/carry them/ look after them, well yes that makes me a bit anxious as well.
Part of this is in my mind I know that but I think that is normal. Please do not start labeling me as abnormal because I am having what I would think of as having normal reactions to events happening in my life. You professionals please don't make me feel mental, find out what the f***ing problem is and either treat it or tell me that this is how it is going to be so that I can start adapting.
